I find that when going through a change in our lives sometimes we get ahead of ourselves. We focus on all the positive things that we are doing but forget about the negative things that we are doing. I realized today, I am 100% guilty of this. I have spent so much time praising myself for all the good I am doing and have completely ignored everything else. While I believe it is important to pat yourself on the back for the right things you are doing, it is also important to acknowledge the wrong that you are doing. As a 27 year old gay man, it is easy to panic and wonder what is next? What am I going to do with my career? Where is that pesky boyfriend I have always wanted? When will I be happy with my body? Great things to focus on, sure. However, there are so many little things that I ignore. I dont have a valid ID. I can't save a penny to save my life. I always think about the immediate; the here and now. I never think about the distant future. What I have failed to realize, is that the here and now directly effects the distant future. While I have grown up quite a bit, I am lacking the fundamental things in life that really makes one an adult such as an ID or a bank account for that matter. It is easier to do the fun things like going to brunch or drinking with your friends or hell even blogging but while all that is going on there are things that need to be taken care of; things that no one can take care of except myself. I have always been this way. Things that NEED to be done always go to the back of the line but the things I WANT to do step right up. I can justify them for the time being and even my friends can but I really cant anymore. At 27, I look up to certain people in my life and I want what they have and I dont want to wake up one day with regrets. Failed attempts I can live with but regrets I cannot. So with all this said, I am taking a course of action. I refuse to let 2013 go by and wish I had done this or that or miss out on things because I wasnt responsible enough to plan for them. This is a solid promise to myself and to those who love me...Scotty's getting his shit together.
-Scotty
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